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Anonymous asks: as someone who's going to oxford, would you say there's any chance of me getting in to a uni like that if I try hard and do well at A-Level, even though I didn't get the best GCSE grades that I could have? :( x

yes! GCSE results really don’t matter too much and they’re contextualised anyway so they’ll take factors like your school’s performance, local authority stats etc into account. as long as you’ve got a fair amount of As you should be ok (and if there’s a reason you didn’t that can be mentioned in your reference and they definitely take it into account). just work hard for your AS exams because those are really what dictate where you can apply. I’m assuming you’ve just finished your GCSEs so just do your best this year and put the uni application process out of your head until you get your AS results (for the sake of your own sanity).

goodygarlick asks: What do you think of Plaid Cymru?

p cool, seem to push local issues really hard and often seem to be the only ones standing up for the working class in Wales (tho welsh labour is much better than its english counterpart and I know it’s a lot easier to stand against cuts when in opposition… whatever). generally seems less corrupt than welsh labour, lol (there’s a fair number of rotten labour boroughs in Wales). if Scotland does become independent I’d really like to see Plaid make use of the extra attention to push for independence (I’m not sure how economically feasible that is but I’d definitely like to see further devolution). also dafydd iwan is a total cutie.

Anonymous asks: What parts of history interest you? I am starting to read more history books for my personal statement for next year/general interest.

these questions make me want to cry because I find it hard to think about things I’m interested in right now. but I did make a list of the uni modules I was planning to take a few months ago so:

  • british history pre-1550, maybe focussing a lot earlier (there are three medieval periods to choose from im not sure which yet)
  • witchcraft and witch-hunting in early modern europe (rly hope this is available)
  • or the rise and crises of european socialisms 1881–1921
  • or women, gender and the nation 1789-1825
  • or the romance of the people: the folk revival from 1760 to 1914 (sadly I can only take one optional subject in the first year ugh)

I’ve always been interested in 20th century political history but I’m bored of that now and excited to branch out into something I have absolutely no experience with

this question actually made me feel excited about stuff thank u

I feel unspeakably lonely. And I feel - drained. It is a blank state of mind and soul I cannot describe to you as I think it would not make any difference. Also it is a very private feeling I have - that of melting into a perpetual nervous breakdown. I am often questioning myself what I further want to do, who I further wish to be; which parts of me, exactly, are still functioning properly. No answers, darling. At all.
—Anne Sexton, A Self-Portrait In Letters 

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met a friend who I’ve known online for ~7yrs for the first time today and it was so lovely, we got on so well and it’s super weird because we haven’t spoken in years but we spent all day every day on forums together for three summers straight so I feel like I know her really well? I’m honestly so pleased I grew up at the time I did (harry potter and noughties forums were a magical combination)

also I ate 2 meals today~ yesterday I didn’t move from my bed and watched season 4 of the thick of it and season 1 of utopia so today was a definite improvement

p.s. sorry to everyone whose messages and emails I’m not replying to, I’m doing my best.

Anonymous asks: how come you've seen it already?x

they live streamed it to cinemas from the premiere on the 16th

Anonymous asks: where can i watch god help the girl?

general uk release is august 22nd but it’s not on in many cinemas, check their facebook


haha! have fun at highschool today NERDS. i’m gonna be doing cool ADULT stuff like sleeping WHENEVER i want and CRYING 

You eat your goddamn Cheerios and bicker with the bitch in your head who keeps telling you you’re fat and weak: Shut up, you say, I’m busy, leave me alone. When she leaves you alone, there’s a silence and a solitude that will take some getting used to. You will miss her sometimes.
Bear in mind she’s trying to kill you. Bear in mind you have a life to live.
—Marya Hornbacher, Wasted: A Memoir of Anorexia and Bulimia

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Sometimes there are ways to minimize the importance of gender in life, or to confuse gender categories so that they no longer have descriptive power. But other times gender can be very important to us, and some people really love the gender that they have claimed for themselves. If gender is eradicated, so too is an important domain of pleasure for many people. And others have a strong sense of self bound up with their genders, so to get rid of gender would be to shatter their self-hood. I think we have to accept a wide variety of positions on gender. Some want to be gender-free, but others want to be free really to be a gender that is crucial to who they are.
—Judith Butler, [x]. (via fruityjerk)

Map of Paris (1937)

Map of Paris (1937)

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Anonymous asks: Would you say you are a socially-confident person?

only when I’m drunk or on the internet

Anonymous asks: HATERZ GON' HATE. For real though, you are amazing and have built yourself up to be someone that inspires me and others. You are (against all odds) going to Oxford!! So fuck all the people that are hating bc for the most part they are jealous losers. On another note, I wanted to ask how extra curricular stuff helped your application and any recommendations for things to do to help with applying and getting in. Love you lots. xxx

thank you! I’ve talked a fair bit about the application process here already, check my uni tag. if you have specific questions after that just ask. x